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"Judith and I always end up staring at each other across this chasm of misunderstanding. She wants me to be this perfect feminine daughter, and I want her to be my dead mother. Since I can't have what I want, I've made sure Judith doesn't get her wish, either."

Judith, possibly Judith Blake, is a minor character in the Anita Blake: Vampire Hunter series. She is Anita's stepmother. She has not yet appeared in the series, but she continues to have an influence on Anita and is mentioned in most novels.

After Anita's mother died in a car accident, her father remarried Judith when Anita was ten years old. Judith has a daughter, Andria, from a previous marriage. With Anita's father, Judith had Josh. Judith notably made Anita feel out of place in the family.


Judith is tall and blonde with blue eyes.[1]


In Guilty Pleasures, Judith is mentioned just once as complaining that Anita wasn't married yet.[2]

In The Laughing Corpse, Judith is mentioned as being "sick with worry that [Anita will] be an old maid."[3] It seems to Anita that "some deep part of" Judith and Rosita are "offended" that Anita "was twenty-four and had no prospects of marriage."[4] Judith "never quite recovered from the shock" of Anita raising dead animals by accident as a child, and she does not tell people what Anita does for a living.[5]

In Circus of the Damned, it's stated that Anita's father married Judith when Anita was ten, about two years after the death of Anita's mother.[6] Judith thinks Anita's job of raising the dead is "gruesome."[7]

In The Lunatic Cafe, Anita isn't certain what to get Judith for Christmas, and they both seem to be bad at getting gifts for each other.[8] Judith hinted that Anita could get her brother Josh jeans for Christmas because he's "outgrowing his jeans faster than she can buy them," but Anita is ignoring it to get him something "cool" instead.[9] Judith is the type of person to say out loud that Anita should marry someone.[10] Judith liked Anita's first fiance.[11]

In Bloody Bones, Judith is mentioned to approve of good posture. [12]

In The Killing Dance, Anita talks about how different her mother looked from Judith, and how soon he remarried after getting widowed. [13] Judith is a devout Catholic.[14]

In Burnt Offerings, Judith tried unsuccessfully for years to teach Anita to wear heels, but Jean-Claude is finally able to do so.[15]

In Blue Moon, Judith gave Anita lavender blouse that Anita likes, and Anita was gracious enough to tell Judith she was wearing it. "It was the first gift in ten years" that Anita hasn't exchanged. Anita has also not been able to get Judith gifts that she likes.[16]

In Obsidian Butterfly, Donna gives Anita a look "like she'd have liked to correct [Anita's] obviously wrong thinking but was too polite to say it out loud," which reminds Anita of Judith.[17] Anita "never really forgave [her] father for marrying her only two years after [her] mother's death," and she hated him and Judith for it.[18] There is also a conversation with Bernardo Spotted-Horse about Anita's heritage where she thinks about Judith's opinions on the matter. She is always quick to tell other people that Anita's mother was Hispanic-American, now that it's no longer politically correct to say Mexican.[19]

In Narcissus in Chains, Anita says that her first fiance and his family met her father and stepmother. Judith "didn't like pictures of [Anita's] mother being out, so they were all in [Anita's] room," so her fiance's family didn't initially realize that Anita's mother was Mexican.[20]

In Cerulean Sins, Anita recalls that Judith "had never let [Anita] forget that [she] was small and dark, and [Judith] and her children and [Anita's] father, were tall and blond, and blue-eyed."[21]

In Incubus Dreams, Anita recalls that Judith keeps telling her that when Anita hits thirty she'll "feel differently about all this girl stuff" such as wearing makeup, but Anita doesn't think so.[22] Anita tells Ronnie about her childhood therapist who kept trying to tell her that she was raising the dead on purpose "to get back at Judith and her father."[23] Anita reflects that Judith "made every touch some sort of favor" and that "physical touch was not a big thing in [Anita's] family after [her] mother died." Anita contributes this to some of her issues with intimacy.[24] Judith is pleased with things that are clean and neat.[25] When Anita was a teenager, Judith and her father would wait up for her, and "nothing good" ever came from it.[26] Judith has commented on Anita's cussing.[27] Anita thinks of Judith as "the ice princess," and has told Ronnie about her.[28]

In Blood Noir, Anita's father was happy with her as a hunting buddy, but Judith was not. They married when Anita was ten, and from the moment Judith arrived Anita wasn't good enough, blond enough, girly enough, nice enough, cooperative enough, or the daughter Judith wanted. Not like her own daughter Adriana, who is the same age as Anita. She figured out somewhere in her midteens that she couldn't compete, so she stopped trying and became the ultimate tomboy instead and dressed as offensively as she could. Jason points out that at least Anita could always tell herself that Judith is the wicked stepmother, but Anita's grandmother who raised her for the two years (Flirt says about a year) before her father found Judith was also a similar problem. Anita doesn't like going home for the holidays because she has never felt like she fits in and still doesn't. She speculates that one of the problems with Judith might be that she feels like she's competing with a dead saint, but that might be just Anita projecting.[29]

In Flirt, Judith had been blond and blue-eyed, tall and Nordic, and quick to tell others that Anita wasn't hers and had a Hispanic mother. Judith told Anita she wasn't tall enough, white enough, pretty enough, but Grandmother Blake was the first one to do so.[30]

In Bullet, Judith had a special way to say Anita's name when she was about fifteen.[31]

In Hit List, Judith doesn't like Anita being a marshal and vampire hunter.[32]

In Kiss the Dead, when Anita was small, Judith confirmed to her that 'champagne blond' is a real hair color that is also called 'dirty blond'.[33] Anita doesn't get along with Judith.[34]

In Affliction, growing up, Anita didn't get along with Judith.[35] Anita doesn't think that her relationship with Micah and Nathaniel would go down as well with Judith as with Micah's mom.[36] Anita doesn't consider Judith her parent, and knows how awkward it makes introductions to want to acknowledge a stepparent without claiming them as family.[37]

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In Jason, as a little girl Anita wanted to look like her tall, blond, and Nordic-looking family.[38]

In Dead Ice, Judith and Anita's father weren't amused when Anita started raising dead animals by accident. [39] Judith also doesn't tolerate boots on the couch.[40]

In Serpentine, Judith was a widow when she married Anita's father, and neither of them kept out any pictures of their deceased spouses.[41]

In Sucker Punch, Anita has been dealing with her family more than usual thanks to the wedding planning. She recalls how Andrea had started correcting Judith's openly racist comments by the time Anita and Andrea were teenagers.[42] Anita also mentions to Marshal Newman that Judith loved celebrity gossip shows and was in charge of the remote when Anita still lived back home.[43] She revisits the celebrity gossip show memories later in the book as well. [44]

In Rafael, there is a brief reference to Judith's racism, although she isn't mentioned by name.[45]


  1. The Killing Dance, chapter 22.
  2. Guilty Pleasures, chapter 16: "When I'd been in the hospital with my arm in traction and tubes running all through me, my stepmother had complained that I wasn't married yet. She's worried that I will be an old maid at the ripe age of twenty-four. Judith is not what you would call a liberated woman."
  3. The Laughing Corpse, chapter 04:
    "Rosita thinks you don't take care of yourself." He (Manny) dropped into a near-perfect imitation of his wife's scolding voice, a much thicker Mexican accent than his own. "She doesn't eat right, so thin. Poor Anita, no husband, not even a boyfriend." He grinned.
    Rosita sounds like my stepmother. Judith is sick with worry that I'll be an old maid.
  4. The Laughing Corpse, chapter 09: "She (Rosita) let him pull her towards the car, but her brown face was set in disapproval. It offended some deep part of Rosita that I was twenty-four and had no prospects of marriage. Her and my stepmother."
  5. The Laughing Corpse, chapter 14:
    I thought for one wild moment she was alive. It had been a mistake, but I know dead when I see it. Feel it. Call it from the grave. I wonder what Dominga Salvador would think about that story. Calling an animal zombie. How shocking. Raising the dead by accident. How frightening. How sick.
    My stepmother, Judith, never quite recovered from the shock. She rarely tells people what I do for a living. Dad? Well, Dad ignores it, too. I tried ignoring it, but couldn't. I won't go into details, but does the term "road kill" have any significance for you? It did for Judith. I looked like a nightmare version of the Pied Piper.
    My father finally took me to meet my maternal grandmother. She's not as scary as Dominga Salvador, but she's . . . interesting. Grandma Flores agreed with Dad. I should not be trained in voodoo, only in enough control to stop the . . . problems. "Just teach her to control it," Dad said.
    She did. I did. Dad took me back home. It was never mentioned again. At least not in front of me. I always wondered what dear stepmother said behind closed doors. For that matter Dad wasn't pleased either. Hell, I wasn't pleased.
  6. Circus of the Damned, chapter 09: "I was eight when my mother died. My father remarried when I was ten."
  7. Circus of the Damned, chapter 25: "But I knew that raising the dead wasn't just a job choice. If your "talent" was strong enough, you had to raise the dead or risk the power coming out at odd moments. Does the term roadkill mean anything to you? It meant something to my stepmother Judith. Of course, she wasn't pleased with my job. She thought it was gruesome. What could I say? She was right."
  8. The Lunatic Cafe, chapter 14: "Every year I wondered what to buy Judith, my stepmother, for Christmas. You'd think after fourteen years I'd get better. Of course, you'd think she'd get better at buying for me. Judith and I always end up staring at each other across this chasm of misunderstanding. She wants me to be this perfect feminine daughter, and I want her to be my dead mother. Since I can't have what I want, I've made sure Judith doesn't get her wish, either. Besides, she's got Andria, who is perfect. One perfect kid in the family is enough."
  9. The Lunatic Cafe, chapter 14: "My baby brother was my height last year. He'll be gigantic this year. Judith says he's outgrowing his jeans faster than she can buy them."
  10. The Lunatic Cafe, chapter 17: "Her tone of voice said more than the words. "Nice young man" meant marry him. My stepmother, Judith, would agree with her. Except that Judith would have said it out loud, no hinting."
  11. The Lunatic Cafe, chapter 18, referring to her first engagement: "The first time he'd been so white bread that even Judith had liked him. He'd been Mr. All-American, and I hadn't been good enough for him, according to his family."
  12. Bloody Bones, chapter 21: "I motioned her (Dorcas Bouvier) to a seat. She sat in one of the chairs, spine very straight, perfect posture. My stepmother, Judith, would have been proud."
  13. The Killing Dance, chapter 22:
    "When I was a little girl, my father would come up behind my mother. He would wrap his arms around her waist, bury his face in her hair, and say, 'How is the most beautiful woman in the world today?' He said it at least once a day. She would laugh and tell him not to be silly, but I agreed with him. To me, she was the most beautiful woman in the world."
    "She was your mother. All little girls think that of their mother."
    "Maybe, but two years after she died, Dad remarried. He married Judith, who was tall and blond and blue-eyed, and nothing like my mother. If he had really believed my mother was the most beautiful woman in the world, why did he marry some Nordic ice princess? Why didn't he marry someone small and dark like my mother?"
    "I don't know, ma petite," he said quietly.
    "Judith had a daughter only a couple of years younger than me. Then they had Josh together and he was as blond and blue-eyed as the rest of them. I looked like a small dark mistake in the family photos."
    "Your skin is almost as pale as mine, ma petite."
    "But I have my mother's eyes and hair. My hair isn't brunette, it's black. A woman asked Judith once in front of me if I was adopted. Judith said, no, I was from her husband's first marriage.
  14. The Killing Dance, chapter 46: "My dad saw me on television in Jean-Claude's arms. He called and left a very worried message on my answering machine. My family are devout Catholics. There is no such thing as a good vampire to them."
  15. Burnt Offerings, chapter 07: "After years of my not being able to wear heels and dress clothes, Jean-Claude had taught me in a month what my stepmother couldn't teach me in twenty years."
  16. Blue Moon, chapter 05: "The fresh blouse was a pale, almost icy, lavender. It had been a gift from my stepmother, Judith. When I opened the box at Christmas and saw the pale blouse, I assumed she bought me yet another piece of clothing that would look better on her blond ice princess body than on my darker one. But the pure, clear color actually looked pretty spiffy. I'd even been gracious enough to tell Judith I was wearing it. I think it was the first gift in ten years that I hadn't exchanged. I was still 0 for 8 in the gift department for her. Oh, well."
  17. Obsidian Butterfly, chapter 02: "Donna looked like she'd have liked to correct my obviously wrong thinking but was too polite to say it out loud. The expression, not the silence, reminded me of my stepmother Judith. Which made me push Donna's age over fifty."
  18. Obsidian Butterfly, chapter 12: "I remembered how I'd felt when my father brought Judith home. I'd never really forgiven my father for marrying her only two years after my mother's death. I hadn't finished my grieving and he was moving on with his life, being happy again. I'd hated him for it and hated Judith more."
  19. Obsidian Butterfly, chapter 18, conversation with Bernardo about Anita's heritage:
    I thought about it. My stepmother's hurried comments to strangers that I was not hers. No, I wasn't adopted. I was her stepdaughter. Me and Cinderella. The really rude ones would ask, "What was her mother?"
    Judith would always answer quickly, "Her mother was Mexican." Though lately it was Hispanic-American. No one could accuse Judith of not being politically correct on the issue of race. My mother had died long before people had worried about political correctness being in vogue. If someone asked, she always said proudly, "Mexican." If it was good enough for my mother, it was good enough for me.
    That memory I didn't share. I'd never really shared it with my father. I wasn't about to start with a stranger. I chose another memory that didn't hurt quite so much. "I was engaged once until his mother found out my mother had been Mexican. He was blond and blue-eyed, the epitome of WASP breeding. My future-in-law didn't like the idea of me darkening her family tree." That was a brief, unemotional way to say some very painful things. He had been my first love, my first lover. I thought he was everything to me, but I wasn't everything to him. I'd never let myself fall so completely into anyone's arms before or since. Jean-Claude and Richard were both still paying the bill for that first love.
  20. Narcissus in Chains, chapter 21: "They'd met my father and his second wife, but they are both good little Aryans, very nordic. My stepmother didn't like pictures of my mother being out, so they were all in my room. I wasn't hiding it, but that's how my almost mother-in-law took it. Funny thing, her son knew. I'd told him the whole story. It hadn't mattered until his mom threatened to cut him off from the family money."
  21. Cerulean Sins, chapter 25: "My stepmother, Judith, had never let me forget that I was small and dark, and she and her children and my father, were tall and blond, and blue-eyed."
  22. Incubus Dreams, chapter 01: "My stepmother, Judith, keeps telling me that when I hit thirty I'll feel differently about all this girl stuff."
  23. Incubus Dreams, chapter 27, Anita says to Ronnie: "The therapist tried to help me with my latent issues with my mother's death and my dad's remarriage, but he wouldn't believe that I could raise the dead by accident. He kept trying to tell me that I was doing it on purpose to get back at Judith and my father."
  24. Incubus Dreams, chapter 27, regarding Anita's issues with sex and touch: "Truthfully, I thought a lot of the damage had been my grandmother's doing, and my stepmother, Judith, who made every touch some sort of favor. Physical touch was not a big thing in my family after my mother died."
  25. Incubus Dreams, chapter 62, regarding an apartment: "It was clean and neat enough to have pleased even my stepmother, Judith."
  26. Incubus Dreams, chapter 80, when Anita comes home at 3am to Micah and Nathaniel waiting up for her: "Nothing good had ever come of my father and Judith waiting up for me. I still was't completely used to living with anyone, so sometimes old reactions crept up, like I was seventeen again, and there was a light one."
  27. Incubus Dreams, chapter 11:"I know, I know, profanity doesn't solve anything." Teddy had started commenting on how much cussing I did. Him and my stepmother.
  28. Incubus Dreams, chapter 27, Anita narrating regarding Ronnie: "We'd both told each other our sad stories years ago. She knew all about my mother's death, my father marrying the ice princess stepmother, and my perfect stepsister. We'd shared our bitterness toward our families long ago."
  29. Blood Noir, chapter 24, Jason and Anita:
    "You've met my folks now. I’ve spent my life not being the person anyone wanted in their life. My dad wanted a different son, Anita. Do you know what it feels like to know that your dad is always wanting some other kind of son?"
    "Not the son part," I said.
    His eyes intensified, getting that look of interest he got. "Did your dad want you to be a boy, or something?"
    I smiled. "No, he was happy with me. I was still his hunting buddy, and we did all sorts of the guy stuff together."
    "Your stepmother, Judith," he said.
    They married when I was ten, and from the moment she came I was not good enough. Not blond enough, not girly enough, not nice enough, not cooperative enough, not the daughter she wanted."
    "She's got a girl your age, right?"
    "Yeah, Adriana. She's the perfect daughter for Judith."
    "I figured out somewhere in my midteens that I couldn't compete, so I stopped trying." ... "I became the ultimate tomboy. I refused to wear a dress. I refused to play the game with Judith." ... "Was I Goth?" ... "Yeah, I guess so, but not really because it pleased me, more because it didn't please her. I found the most offensive T-shirts I could get away with, and most of them came in black."
    "But you could always tell yourself that Judith is the wicked stepmother."
    "Yeah, but Grandma Blake, who raised me for the two years before my father found Judith, well, that's a different problem."
    "Everyone else goes home for nostalgia, and happy memories. I end up feeling like I never fit in with the family as a child, and being older hasn't changed that. When I was little I thought I'd been left by gypsies, or switched at the hospital, except I had my mother's pictures to look at. I look too much like her not to be her daughter."
    "You don't look very Hispanic."
    I smiled. "The skin color is my father's, but the hair, eyes, and bone structure are more my mom's. My father's cheekbones have given me less of that nice high, ethnic line, but I am the ghost at the banquet, Jason. The older I got, the more I reminded Dad of the wife he lost, and Judith of the woman she replaced."
    "Is that your issue, or theirs?"
    "A little of both, I think. Remember, my mother was Dad's first love, maybe his first lover, I don't know, but a lot of firsts. That's a lot of baggage to overcome. Then you have that whole dying-young-and-tragically thing, it tends to put a romantic haze around everything."
    "Hard for Judith to compete with a dead saint?" he said.
    "Something like that."
    "Are you projecting, or do you know for certain that wicked stepmom felt this way?"
    "I don't know, Jason. I know that's how I feel, and how they seemed to feel, but I was a kid, and now I can't see them clearly. There's too much baggage in the way.
  30. Flirt, chapter 2:
    Nathaniel's arms encircled me from behind, as Micah came in from the front for a kiss. "You are beautiful, Anita, I swear it's true," he whispered. I was tense in their arms, almost panicked; why? My father's second wife had been blond and blue-eyed, tall and Nordic, as had her daughter from her first marriage, and the son they had together later. I loved my brother Josh, but I'd always looked like the dark secret in the family pictures, and Judith had been very quick to explain to friends that I wasn't hers; that my mother had been Hispanic. I'd always blamed my lack of self-esteem on that, but now I realized that wasn't all of it. It wasn't like a buried memory, just one I hadn't looked at before.
    "My Grandmother Blake took care of me while my father worked for about a year. I'd just lost my mom, and she told me that I was ugly, that I better not count on finding a husband, but get an education and a job and take care of myself."
    "What?" Micah said. Nathaniel's arms tightened around me.
    "Don't make me say it again; it's such a shitty thing to do to a little kid."
    "You know it's not true," Micah said, studying my face.
    I nodded, and then shook my head. "I guess, not really. I mean, I see how people react to me so I know I clean up well, but I can't really see why you guys react to me. I just see what my grandmother and then my stepmother told me wasn't tall enough, white enough, pretty enough." The tightness in my chest eased the panic flowing away on the realization that even if I'd been an ugly little girl, a grandmother who loved you wouldn't have said it. She might have encouraged you to study hard and get a career, but she wouldn't have told you it was because you were ugly and no man would have you.
  31. Bullet, chapter 13, Bibiana and Anita:
    "Do you really believe that you could hold all that power and resist the temptation to use it?"
    "Anita." She said my name the way my stepmother had said it when I was about fifteen.
    "Don't you want me to use the power if I could get it? Isn't that the point?"
  32. Hit List, chapter 04, conversation with Laila Karlton:
    "What does he (Anita's dad) think of you being a marshal and vampire hunter?" she (Laila) asked, as she dumped her clothes in a pile on the bed and began to sort them.
    "He's okay with it. My stepmother, Judith, on the other hand, doesn't like it much."
  33. Kiss the Dead, chapter 13: Brice was five-eight, five-nine, short, but with nicely cut hair in one of those in-between colors that was either pale brown or a really dark blond. When I'd been a little girl I would have called it pale brown, but a girl in my class had hair almost the same color and she had informed me that it was 'champagne blond.' My stepmother had confirmed it was an actual color, but most people called it 'dirty blond.' That childhood faux pas had left its mark, so Brice's hair color was a mystery until he told me otherwise.
  34. Kiss the Dead, chapter 19, said to Micah: "It's just that you seem to like your family, and miss them. I don't see mine, because I don't get along with my stepmother or stepsister."
  35. Affliction, chapter 05: "I had just my dad until I was ten, and then a stepmom that I totally didn't get along with and a stepsister my own age, and then they had Josh together."
  36. Affliction, chapter 14:
    A look that I couldn't interpret crossed her face, and then she (Micah's mom) hugged Nathaniel as tightly and completely as she had me. He hesitated for a second, then returned the hug, his face a little puzzled, but smiling over her shoulder.
    She said, "So happy to meet you and Anita both; you have no idea how happy I am to meet my son's friends."
    Micah and I exchanged a look. I tried to say with my eyes, Well, that went well. I was betting my stepmom wouldn't do nearly as well with it, but then again, Micah had been convinced his mom wouldn't do this well with Nathaniel. Maybe our parents were more grown up than we gave them credit for?
  37. Affliction, chapter 14:
    Micah took the hand. "I'm glad I could be here, too." He turned back to me and said, "Anita, Nathaniel, this is Tyson Morgan, my mom's... husband."
    I had my own stepmom so I knew the awkward moment when you wanted to acknowledge them but not claim them as your parent.
  38. Jason, chapter 01: She (Envy) was everything I'd wanted to be when I was a little girl: tall, blond, and Nordic-looking like my father and stepmother, and stepsister, and half brother, and...
  39. Dead Ice, chapter 04:
    "The Catholic Church claims that all animators are trampling on Jesus' territory by raising the dead."
    "Yeah, that's what got us all excommunicated unless we agreed to stop doing it. What the Church doesn't understand is that for some of us it's a psychic gift, which means if we don't use it on purpose it comes out in other ways."
    "Like untrained telepaths who go crazy because they can't block everyone else's thoughts," Brent said.
    "Yeah, except for me it was roadkill following me home, or my first dog that died and came back."
    Zerbrowski gave me wide eyes; apparently I'd never shared that with him.
    "That sounds pretty awful," Manning said.
    "It was, and my dad and stepmom were not amused."
  40. Dead Ice, chapter 19: My stepmother, Judith, would have told her (Echo) to get her boots off the couch, but I didn't care, not if this idea worked.
  41. Serpentine, chapter 28: She (Donna) was the only person I knew who kept a picture of her first husband when she was with someone else, but maybe that was because she'd been widowed. No, that couldn't be it, because my father didn't keep any pictures of my mother out, and my stepmother, Judith, didn't keep any of her first husband out either, and they were a widow and a widower.
  42. Sucker Punch, chapter 16: Maybe I was letting my own personal issues interfere? Probably. I'd been dealing with my family more than normal because of the wedding planning. My stepmother, Judith, was as blond and blue-eyed as her daughter, as my father, and as their shared son, my half brother. I was the only dark, ethnic note in their German white bread, and Judith had never, ever let me forget it. She'd been so rude about it that by the time we were teenagers, Andrea, Judith's daughter from her first marriage, had started correcting the racism in front of her mother and whomever she was talking to. Andrea and I had never really gotten along that well, so I'd been surprised that she'd come to my defense. In hindsight I wasn't sure she'd been defending me as much as she was just embarrassed by her mother's obvious white-supremacy leanings. Either way, it had left me with an ethnic chip on my shoulder that I never let Judith forget.
  43. Sucker Punch, chapter 16: "I remember this. It was in all the tabloids in the supermarket and on the celebrity gossip shows. My stepmother loved those kinds of shows. I was still trapped at home with her in charge of the remote. 'Backwoods Millionaire Marries Supermodel.' Wasn't that one of the headlines?"
  44. Sucker Punch, chapter 35: That made Jocelyn open her eyes. She looked so much like her mother that her eyes being brown instead of extraordinary green was almost jarring. Until I saw her eyes, I hadn't realized just how well I knew her mother's face. I'd grown up seeing her mother in tabloids at the grocery store and on the celebrity gossip shows that my stepmother, Judith, had loved. It was almost like having a friend show up with the wrong eyes.
  45. Rafael, chapter 02: Rafael was like my parents—first generation born in this country. We both thought of ourselves as American, and most people didn't even realize I had Hispanic heritage. I could pass, as they say, though I'd never been pale enough for my blond stepmother, but that was a sad racist story for another time.